Adventure Suprise

I think everyone has waited long enough for the birth announcement. I gave birth to a little boy alone. I was alone through the first 4 hours of labor, before Sunny came and helped me through the other 5 hours. I named him Columbus because I thought it sounded cute with Christopher. Ramsi said he would stay home with Chris, but the next day after Chris went to school he still didn’t come or call. I figured it was because he had to go to work. Sunny thinks I’m being too nice to him. Still no proposal…

While I was giving birth to Columbus, Chris was headed off to his first day of school. His father got him ready and sent him off. He was dressed for an adventure. He is so excited about his pending trip to France. I hate to tell him that it’s not going to be for awhile yet. We got to save up the money, but we have to add room for Columbus. We’re going to be tight on money for the next few years.

The years fly by, and me and Ramsi grow further apart. I don’t care for him anymore. The doubts have turned to resentment and now I’m staying for the kids. I’m not happy with him, but couldn’t make it without his income. Chris can feel the distance between his father and me and is starting to ask questions. I take him fishing and talk to him about gardening to help keep his mind occupied and promise to talk to him about things when he is older.

When Columbus turned two years old, I just bought him a cake. I didn’t even consider that his father would want to be present at the occasion. Ramsi becomes angry because I was letting Columbus grow up without him. I reminded him of all I have done without him, like giving birth to his son alone. We won’t get into that on a day of celebration though.

Columbus is a much disciplined child and very well mannered. He makes do with his lack of toys and things and never complains about a thing. His favorite is the one he calls hosey. He is a brilliant child, just like his brother. I love these boys dearly.

Ramsi tries to make up by helping with the kids. He teaches Columbus to talk and even helps Chris with his homework. He is an amazing father, but I just don’t know why he won’t marry me. That’s all I would want from him at this point. I really don’t feel like I’m in love with him anymore. I think it comes from him not acting like he cares for me any longer. After all these years the feelings have faded.

When Columbus was 4, Chris turned 13. We threw Chris a party for entering the teenage years and invited his friends from school. He was still wanting to go to France and understood the need of money for his family. He decided to get a job at the grocery store to help provide for his family.

Chris made a very nice looking teenager. He favored his Dad. After the party all hell breaks loose. Alcohol and pinned up feelings never mix well. I explained to Chris all that had gone on with his dad and me. How we met in China and planned the trip in Egypt and fell in love, but how he won’t marry me and how I have fallen out of love with him. He understood the need of letting Ramsi go before Columbus got too attached to his father. I promised Chris I would try one more time for love with Ramsi Ru.

After the guest all left the party I look for my boyfriend and I find him in the gardening. He smiles as I approach. I lean in for a kiss. We haven’t even touched on purpose in over a year and he puts his hands up to stop me from kissing him. He says he’s not in the mood for romancing.

I finally ask my boyfriend of 13 years why he won’t marry me and why he won’t even touch me anymore. He tells me that it was just a fling. A fling? A 13 year, two kids fling? I’m irate at this and I just can’t take it anymore. I tell him that I loved him and that he is a wonderful father, but a terrible lover, and that I can’t handle it. It’s either marry me or leave.

He apologized for leading me on all of these years, but he couldn’t marry me for personal reasons and he wouldn’t tell me what it was. He begged me to let him stay and see his boys grow up. He said they need a father, but I couldn’t take it any longer.

I tell him he has to go the same night. Ramsi Ru catches a flight back to Egypt and is out of the boy’s lives forever.

It was time for Columbus to turn 5 soon after his father left and he already was asking for his daddy. This was going to be harder than I thought. He was old enough to know he had a father, but not old enough to understand the concept of love or a lack of.

Columbus is going to look a lot like his father and brother. It may be a good thing that they don’t take after me. I told the boys that as soon as we had the money needed we were out of this town and into France. They were super excited and we couldn’t wait to go on our first adventure as a family.

The boys had plenty of friends at school. I overheard Columbus telling his friend on the phone that he wishes we had a computer so he could write a story. I never knew he would be an aspiring writer. I’ll buy him a computer as soon as we can afford it after our trip.

It’s time to go now. There is money to make and save and an adventure to go on.

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