When I hit my 35th birthday I became very depressed again. I just wasn’t happy with my family. I loved my babies, but I just wasn’t in the mood for being a wife and mom. I hated feeling this way and knew the only way out was to leave, but I had to plan my escape well. Much to my surprise Ezekiel bought a plane ticket to France and gave it to me for my birthday. “I know you’re not happy any more and I’m not sure why. Go away for a few days and when you return we will talk about what needs to happen to make you happy.” Ezekiel is the perfect man, but I’m just not in love with him.

On my way out the door the day I was to leave for France, Dad dropped dead. Out of the blue he just collapsed. My sisters promised to make the funeral arrangements and when I returned from my vacation we would have the proper burial ceremony for him. I know everyone was talking about me being so selfish, but getting away was important.

My evil daughter Tara was fascinated with Death and spent a few hours after Dad’s passing talking to him. She immediately went to my room and logged in my computer and started a book about Death. I’m starting to worry about her and her weird fascinations.

Finally, I was able to leave in a taxi to catch my plane to France. On the plane I met a guy by the name of Khaled. He was a tour guide in France and he promised to show me around. Khaled was a rather young guy and he was very attractive.

He was easy to talk to and after a day he knew my whole story. He assured me that things would get better, but thought that maybe getting married wasn’t what I should have done. He thinks I should have waited for the right man instead of marrying my best friend.

The second night of my stay, he invited me to a wine tasting party. When we arrived it was only us and the owner of the store. We tasted dozens of wines and things started going fuzzy. I had never drank alcohol before and I was drunk very easily. I had the weirdest dreams about kissing Khaled  and even sleeping with him. The dream was vivid and I could almost swear it was better than anything I had ever done with Ezekiel.

When it was time to leave he hugged me goodbye and I left to go back home. I was happier, but thought it was time to tell Ezekiel that I wasn’t happy with him any longer and that he needed to leave. I hated doing this to him, but it was best for my sanity and my girls.

When I arrived home, I lost my nerve. Ezekiel was doing homework with Sara and he was such a perfect Daddy. I couldn’t tell him, and went straight to bed. Khaled called and woke me up to be sure I made it home and then we hung up quickly and I slept for hours.

For months after my return I couldn’t keep my energy up and had a terrible stomach bug that wouldn’t go away. Ezekiel and I had been sleeping together, but I thought I was too old to become pregnant.

Finally after years of school, internships, and residencies, Ezekiel became a doctor and decided to specialize in gynecology. I was his first patient and we were so excited when we heard the heartbeat and when the ultrasound showed that we were pregnant with twins again, but the good news was that one of the babies was a boy!! I was so excited I couldn’t contain myself. When I talked to Khaled again, I told him the news. “Really?” he said in his thick French accent. “Yes. I’m so excited I’m going to have a son,” I replied, hurt by his tone. “Are you sure they are your husband’s children?” he asks. “Well yes. I have never been with another man,” I said, sarcastically. He suddenly had to hang up and I didn’t hear back from him until the day before I went into labor.

I saw him coming and tried to get in the house, but he got to me first. He talked to my stomach and I couldn’t help, but smile at him. I had dreamed about him for nine months. I wished that somehow that these babies could be his and that I could raise them with him, but I also had four other little girls that needed a daddy as well.

Is this precious little boy my husband’s child, or did that night I “dreamed” of sleeping with  Khaled really happen?

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